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Thoughts over tea: Moving houses

Content warning: discussion about racism and being racist as a white person I lived in my childhood home for fifteen years and about nine-or-so months. I didn’t move very far, only to the next town, but I did move. And I moved again. After gradually…

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Life as an antagonist

Most of the time I’m on the edge. There’s always the selected few moments when I’m feeling okay, when I’m content, when I’m chill. But most of the time I’m a bundle of nerves. I’ve been like this for a long time. Whenever therapists and…

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[FIN+briefly in ENG] Lähes vuosi testoilla + henkilötunnus

Aloitin testosteroni-injektiot Sustanonilla viime elokuussa, eli pian alkaa olla vuosi täynnä. Paljon on mahtunut vuoteen.  Ääni on muuttunut niin että itsekin jo huomaan sen. Läskejä on siirtynyt päärynäalueelta mahaan.  Karvoja on tullut päästä varpaisiin: parran alkukin näkyy jo selkeästi jos en sheivaa. Parrassa on vielä…

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The Depressed Activists

Complete lack of energy. The eternal doom of nihilism. Bouts of high anxiety when anything can cause a panic attack, from the sound of a fork falling on the floor to a surprising flatmate saying hello in the kitchen. Moments when you feel like a…

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Celebrity advocates and the right to speak out

So let me get this straight: when a celebrity, usually a rich (white) cis person, comes out with their mental illness or other disability, that doesn’t give them a free pass. It doesn’t mean that this person is now immune to criticism or that they should…

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Laziness re-evaluated

  Mental illness can affect anyone. In England that number is 1 in 4 people in any given year [1], with up to 10% of the population suffering from depression in their lifetime [1]. And these are the recorded figures: in reality there might be…

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New platform!

Welcome to my new blog. While the transfer didn’t go all peachy, we’re now here and most things are back in place. If you spot a missing image or misplaced categories, please let me know by commenting the post in question! Other than that, I’m…

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Help my website!

I’m currently in rather deep financial troubles, being a full time student and not having a job and keeping getting lots and lots of overdraft fees. If you’d like to help me to keep my websites up, you can use the button below. Any amount…

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To be trans, to be male, to be femme

I can often be seen wearing makeup from the simplest nude base to the flashiest lipstick. I wear chains with sparkling stones on my hair, charm necklaces, pearl rings, beads. When I came out as trans I ditched makeup for good. I never thought I’d…